Received Sunday, January 18, 2009
I need some advice: I was fired tonight because I didn't get permission from the parents to take the baby out. I've taken him out before, and I just wasn't thinking to call. I didn't realize my cell had died and when they tried to find me via calling, they panicked. I messed up totally...and I take full responsibility for this. I'm going to miss the baby so much and I wish I could undo the damage I did,...but I can't. I've been with him since he was a week old. The mom doesn't work, but they are a high profile family and are very busy, so she needed a full time nanny. I was on call, as needed and traveled at their beckon call as agreed upon at the interview. I never asked for a raise and didn't take vacation time because it was hard to schedule something with my family because of their need for me. I wish there was something I could do or say to this family to soften the panic I induced when they couldn't reach me, but I feel there's nothing I can say or do. It's like a marriage almost...when the trust is gone, there's nothing left. I sent them an email asking if they would still allow me to visit the baby from time to time...and I haven't heard back yet. Hopefully, they will allow it. I was with them for over a year and got really attached.
I guess I'm just looking for some feedback...trying to feel better about screwing up so badly.
Update Monday 1/19:
Hey everyone...thanks for all the thoughts and insight. The lady called a little while ago and they have decided to give me another chance. For that I'm so very thankful. I promised to never put them in that situation of panic again and to always let them know where we are and what we're doing. I need to keep my thoughts straight from here on out and pay attention to what I'm doing and where I'm going. Thanks again for all the feedback.