Received Tuesday, December 30, 2008.
I have a problem that isn't really a problem, just something that I did or partook in that came out of nowhere and is completely not representative of my character.
Let me say that I am a good nanny. I won't say how many children or their ages, but I love them and they me. I am in my mid twenties and have about 40 lbs to lose. I work for a couple that is really great to me, to each other and to the children. The mother is a knockout and is very succesful at her job. She also manages to be a great mother even though she works a whole lot. The father is about 9 years older than the mother, he is average looking and looks like a Berkley professor.
I spend a lot of time with the father and the children when the mother isn't around. Don't worry, it isn't like we are playing house. He may be near us but he is usually on the phone. I am the one tending to the children so it is always clear that he is with his nanny. We get along fine. He has a sharp sense of humor and loves to discuss current events and politics, even religion. Not much is off limits.
The other day we were talking about a cooking show that feautured rare delicacies. He was suggesting that he would enjoy trying such things and I said it would never interest me. We started talking about Korean delicacies. Then he asked me if I had ever heard of a korean tongue massage. I said no, I had not. I hadn't. I wasn't sure if he was joking or not. He said it is a massage for really wealthy women where the woman lies on her stomach and the servant drinks from different cups of hot teas and iced beverages and kneads the woman's back with his tongue. No hands, just tongue. He then told me it wasn't at all sexual and went on in more detail. As it happened I was wearing a T back tank top so my shoulder blades were exposed. He looked at my shoulder and I knew what he was thinking. He walked over and began licking my shoulder. He didn't put a hand on me. There were no drinks or anything, he just started licking my shoulder blade. And then the other. I was shocked, embarassed and could not deny that it felt incredible. This lasted no more than four minutes, maybe 5. I don't know what would have happened, I don't think anything because of the timing. The housekeeper was due to arrive, we both knew it and indeed she did. I don't for one minute think he was trying to start anything or had even though about anything.
I think it was just a random and odd thing to have happened. That was this morning. I didn't see him for the rest of the afternoon and the next time I saw him, he was making a packing list with his wife in the kitchen. He greeted me just like he always does, friendly. And his wife immediately thanked me for something I had done for her that day. I went out for coffee tonight and came back in and I could see my female boss in the office and my male boss was in the den watching television. He immediately called out to me and told me about charges being filed on casey anthony's brother and asked me what I thought they were for. We had a five minute discussion about accessory after the fact and the possibilities. During the time, his wife went in the kitchen, retrieved something and returned to the office. All of this went on as usual.
I am beginning to think I dreamed the whole thing. Maybe I am naive but can people do something like that and just not think another thing of it? I have been replaying the incident in my head all day. It's not that I am attracted to him or like him more or like him less or even feel guilty. I just feel so strange. ???????????