I just needed to write down all my feeling from the last hour and a half. I feel terrible! The girls are happy and giving me hugs now so I know they are okay but still.
Lost my temper today
Oh boy! I completely lost my temper at the park today. 3.5f told me she had to go potty, great no bathroom at the park! This is why I told both 3.5f and 3.5f (twins) to try and go potty before we left. I did not get upset because she needed to go potty, I got upset because when I asked her if she went potty before we came to the pirate ship park like I asked, and she said no, however at home she told me she went potty. Then I decided to have her try and go potty behind some bushes because we were the only people at park and I didn't want her to have an accident, but she couldn't so I said okay then we have to go home. If course she gets upset about that because we just got there (I'm sad too!) So twin 2 comes over and I tell her we have to go home because twin1 needs to go potty. So I put twin 2 in her carseat, and shut the door. Got twin 1 in her carseat and asked one more time if she wanted to try and go potty so we didn't have to go home, and she said yes. So we tried rifht outside twin 2s door. It's pretty warm today and I had the windows open in car but I decided to open twin 2s door so she wouldn't get too hot. Oh, it's locked! (She's been locking her foot the past couple of weeks and I've been trying to get her to stop doing that because I don't want something to happen and she gets stuck in the car!) So I knock on window and tell her to open her door. Which she can t unlock it, I had the keys so it was fine, she wasn't trapped or anything but it made me angry because I keep telling her to quit locking the door. So then I lost my temper and yelled at the girls because they weren't listening to directions. And I felt terrible during the drive home and tried talking to them about it. So I told them we weren't watching a movie today like we always do, and that we were having some quiet time when we get home. When we got home, twin 1 sat on the potty for like 10 minutes and guess what? She didn't have to go :/ all that for nothing.
at 8:54 PM